I want this book to be straight from my heart. The majority of everything will be true, but I do want to change names and time because it's not over it. Only one person is in jail; the other is on trial. It’s about losing my niece and every raw feeling that came with it, the anger I felt at my sister and her husband, the lies they told, how they shut us out of everything, even the final goodbyes. It’s about watching my mom quietly carry so much pain while still fighting for everyone, and knowing how tired she really is underneath it all. I want to talk about how her other kids still ask about their sister, and how my mom has to explain that she’s with God now. I want to write about the selfish choices my sister made. But it’s not just anger; eventually, I want it to be about how I turned to God. He gave me understanding and compassion, and reminded me I’m no one to judge. I want it to talk about how I was going through a divorce while dealing with the death of my niece. Again, all facts, I just want to keep the real names and dates changed for the privacy of my family. It's really fresh, and the kids are young, and my mother now has cancer, so I don't want to know since I won't be sharing. I'm doing this as well. I never wrote a book before. I want this book to remind people that life keeps moving. You have to live it. When you breathe, really breathe. When you see something, really see it. When you love, really love. Take it all in. I’m looking for critique partners who can help me shape all of this into a story that’s honest, painful, but still hopeful.

Requirements & Requests

anything I need help

Trigger Warnings:

The death of a child (4years old).